Went for the first day of school.. monday. The very day where u will find yourself dragging your body + sleepy eyes and holiday mood. Now i understand what is "monday blue"... it was science for today.. but just dun feel happy at all... what's come over me man.. class end early.. 2 plus.. easy topic.. very smooth team work... warm weathur.. bad mood.. Now my ears was being plugged into pure sad music. Qing tian, Chun zai.. u name it all. The day seems to be long, hours was never like before and sky was never blue and bright again. In my mind, thoughts had being getting longer and longer. Just finish one story on relationship. Relationship.. what's that. The puzzle seems to be drawing bigger and bigger. Loop were bigger and bigger, thoughts were further and further. Distance between reality and me was like world apart. Things just turn out sour instanly, uplifting everything i see in my way. Raining down degenerate punishing the people, spike was erect and thorns was sharpen. Piercing into my skin inch by inch. The energy in my body seems to be draining away and i uses every ounce of my muscle to finish my day with pain and mouring. What happen to the sky i use to admire before? What happen to the ground which for once spring out gysher of happiness. Things that spur me doesn't seems to be effective anymore. The initial force wasn't in the right place and stars wasn't shinning brightly in the velvet sky.
What's that controls me and gove me thoughts? Just can't stop pumping loud music into my ears. The emotion seems to grow out of hand. Endless stream of imagination draws me further from reality. Am i a new being? or am i dead? Sad... ...? what is sadness?
*faLlen*