Yes! I have officially recieved my comfirmation for my presentation this thurs (1st Feb 2007) @ 1145 hours. Now this is a time where I will be put to test with the knowledge of programming, implmentation and also my creativity on the "eBay" that I've created with my 3 man- teammates.

Through this process... I believe that I have come to learn alot more about myself.. about the the nature of my job scope next time and even a hint on how it is like working in the society next time. This moment gave me a mix feeling as I am still thinking what should I do upon graduation and going into the army for 1 year and 8 months. (Oh yes! A year and 8 months because I've passed my NAPFA ^^ )
And that although I know generally what to do after that, I still struggling what is the "exact" direction I need to go to before probing further on. That's something about me man! I just can't obey easily... and that makes me one very big obstacles myself from being better for God. Now that graduation is 3 weeks and that this run is going to end soon enough and than... Free...

Alot of things are ging through my mind right now as there are little or no much trouble with determining to move on to further education or not~ But one thing I know is that I will NOT be going to the U. Haha... Not that "material" to fit in.

Oh well... Just have to take a step one by one and to serouly be still and submitting everything into His hands man... My future and His hopes on me. Oh well! The feeling now is quite hard for me to bear.. but i have to press on for a better future ya?! Pressure brings preserverance. ^^

Back back back back back!

SoOooOOo soo sorry that i didn't actually update for decades. Been rushing my FYP like mad all day (And i really mean every day). The coding was killing me softly and provided with the fact that i still have a long way to go... I felt like it's the end of the world. Certain functions are so hard to find as it makes up of many different parts to found one usable function and that itself requires alot of effort man.

What best is also that the deadline is like 5 more days and i still have so much to catch up upon. Been jggling between project work, sleep + quiet time + church ministry and CCC.
Today is the official submit-ion time and that the i could only see my work being burned into CDs and send them into the office hoping that it will bring me some compliment and grades. Have to eye the whole process of sending in an incomplete work.. on the other hand.. my best effort from a handicapped team.

Upon all these things that took place. I think i would had learn alot valuable lesson that really challenge my faith and also greatly on my personnality.
You see.. firstly i was being place into a team that is not of any christian background (I think.. so far possible)... secondly, tendecy of flaring up when people doesn't nothing to the work you are putting so much effort in.. thirdly... you are working with a partner (reliable one) that is cursing and swearing about. Lastly.. You are working under heavy pressure. It's very nature for people like me to flare up and really wanting to take things the "fist" way or the "hard" way.

My partner was like constantly saying "I make sure they fail man.. they don't fail than ***************************** (and the list goes on)."

Soon enough after working with him constantly for a few days.. being someone who is very irritated by the situation.. i concive those thoughts too and soon become a very very angry person.
I tried to do things that will potray how much i have done.. how such a poor thing i am and how much i have sacrifice .(getting some console from people ya know?) But once i was praying keeping still.. The Lord impresses this on me..

"Jesus died once and for all for everyone... Anyone... being regard to people whom He knows, He loves, He came in contact to... of blood relationship.. Non blood relationship.. Even to the extend to of those nailed Him and totured Him..."

Now this brings much thought into my head... I have to love them
Romans 15:7 --> Accept each other just as Jesus accept you... So that ultimatly God be glorified

Looks like i have to hold down that conflict within me and contrary of seeing people to pass at all cost.. regardless what they did and contribute.

Something about DG

By Simon

What I see for the word “DG”, it expands more than just limiting to “Discipleship Group” or anything, anywhere that accountability is involve. It’s more than just a group of people gathering on a day or so to listening to someone’s sharing or being caught slipping away in tiredness. When I first joined crusade, DG is one of the equipping factors that groom me to what I am today. Might seems that it is all about studying the word of God and applying it into your life, it actually mould you on the basis of the love and care that you received through those lessons! Now that this growing process starts with the administration of the words into your life as a Christian. You get the norms of every Christian need to know. Than, you expose yourself to God’s words with challenging questions and from part of bible. Finally, you explore your relationship with your fellow-mate and enjoy God’s shower of blessing! To add the icing on the cake, you have outing to clear up every end of school terms.
Marvelous as it sounded, DG is a part of crusader’s life that he or she cannot miss. What are you waiting for? Experience that change while you can! Sign up with you SM now!

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The following words are something which I would like to dedicate to all those kids I met in my mission trip... And everyone out there whom had touched my life.. and to those I had blessed...

With love...

"It hurts me to leave without saying good bye... but I best be moving along.
Though I kept it to myself, when I came to you my heart was heavy.

It's a loud, noisy world we live in, and sometimes we lose our way. But if we're lucky, the good Lord sent someone to bring us home. Make no never mind about it, loving people is hard work. And families, with all those lies mixing together... it get kinda scary.

But if we grab hold of each other, and hold on... there's nothing more beautiful in the world. You angels are my heart and I will never forget you... and keep a look out, you never know when simon might be back..."

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Yes! I'm finally back from my mission trip to phillipines and that I must say that all mission trip are indeed unique in one way or another.

1. you will experience God's providence
2. you will see lives change
3. you will feel a difference in your life
4. you will see how much you are worth and treasured
5. How lucky you are...

These are some of the end results that I will always conclude after each mission trip I'm on. Currently I would say that I had been to 3 of those... each bring something to impact my life, mould and learn.

First mission trip was to Thailand pattaya distributing christian tracks. Seems very fruitless but it is a great leap of faith as you trust that those tracks you send out will change someone life some way or another. Why? Cause i heard of a story that goes like this...

There was once a pastor whom is in the middle of the train station giving out small flyers to the rushing crowds hoping atleast they will take a look while on the long ride home.

It happens one of a stranger took the flyer, spat on it and torn in in pieces right in front of the pastor's face. Upon that he toss those small strips of remains and allow it to fly along with the wind.

One week pass since that incident, the pastor was in his house when he got a knock on his door. At the door stood a frail looking man with a small piece of paper seems torn from somewhere, and he said.

- Sir, i would like to know where is this life that is written on this strip of paper?

After a long conversation... The pastor got to knew that this man whom in search for "life" was actually a man who was going to jump off the track to kill himself... when that strip of paper slap upon his face. That strip of paper simply contain "have the son will have life - John 3:16".

- Based on a truth story

Amazing ya? I believe that what ever i have done in those 3 mission trip will be of a impact to someone else... a ripple effect. :)