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SoOooOOo soo sorry that i didn't actually update for decades. Been rushing my FYP like mad all day (And i really mean every day). The coding was killing me softly and provided with the fact that i still have a long way to go... I felt like it's the end of the world. Certain functions are so hard to find as it makes up of many different parts to found one usable function and that itself requires alot of effort man.

What best is also that the deadline is like 5 more days and i still have so much to catch up upon. Been jggling between project work, sleep + quiet time + church ministry and CCC.
Today is the official submit-ion time and that the i could only see my work being burned into CDs and send them into the office hoping that it will bring me some compliment and grades. Have to eye the whole process of sending in an incomplete work.. on the other hand.. my best effort from a handicapped team.

Upon all these things that took place. I think i would had learn alot valuable lesson that really challenge my faith and also greatly on my personnality.
You see.. firstly i was being place into a team that is not of any christian background (I think.. so far possible)... secondly, tendecy of flaring up when people doesn't nothing to the work you are putting so much effort in.. thirdly... you are working with a partner (reliable one) that is cursing and swearing about. Lastly.. You are working under heavy pressure. It's very nature for people like me to flare up and really wanting to take things the "fist" way or the "hard" way.

My partner was like constantly saying "I make sure they fail man.. they don't fail than ***************************** (and the list goes on)."

Soon enough after working with him constantly for a few days.. being someone who is very irritated by the situation.. i concive those thoughts too and soon become a very very angry person.
I tried to do things that will potray how much i have done.. how such a poor thing i am and how much i have sacrifice .(getting some console from people ya know?) But once i was praying keeping still.. The Lord impresses this on me..

"Jesus died once and for all for everyone... Anyone... being regard to people whom He knows, He loves, He came in contact to... of blood relationship.. Non blood relationship.. Even to the extend to of those nailed Him and totured Him..."

Now this brings much thought into my head... I have to love them
Romans 15:7 --> Accept each other just as Jesus accept you... So that ultimatly God be glorified

Looks like i have to hold down that conflict within me and contrary of seeing people to pass at all cost.. regardless what they did and contribute.