I find this rather hilarious! Enjoy!
Yes! I'm officially declared as "FREE" man now after 1month and 3 weeks worth of working day after day from 9am - 6pm! (Al thought the fact still remind that the company still owns me my pay for the whole duration of my service.)
Yeap! For the first time after for quite a while, this morning I had a very good breakfast by myself sitting alone in the food center... Breezy warm morning with not much people around... regular minimum noise and little distraction of life... perfect! And I saw one of my ex-school friend whom is helping out his mummy on her stall... The name is Chin leng and he had help his mummy ever since sec 1 till now... 9 years of helping out (you do the maths on his age.. haha).
As I review part of my life days ago through friendster (Thank God for that)... I can't help but to realize how fast time can go and how much a person can change... Lets talk about ppl who are of +- 2 years of me. Some of them are married... in fact.. 2 were married. Some have kids already... Some were doing very well in studies and work... some even move on to the next stage of life and committing to the society.
As I was sitting there... I realise that... Somehow my life did took a miraculous turn. Consider this
:: I'm from NA
:: I was from a background where coarse joke are everyday language
:: I was placed into a class classified as "Hopeless" in sec school
:: I am never good with words
:: Never will I be able to be expected to poly
and of course various other "path" that I am pre-destined to walk...
** OK.. This is the part where is it quite sensitive. Please take it openly :)
All my fellow peers back then were like me and is proven now... Some quit school after "N" lvl.. Some finishes ITE.. Some even started going to private school.. 3 of my fellow friend who move on to "O"s with me failed badly and are now working somewhere else.
In all and all... I am the only one that made it to poly... and... I achieved so much more then just being in terms of qualification of studies... but also my personality. You see... If that "turn" never happens... I wouldn't even be using words like these (up there) and trust me.. You could click on the archive of this blog and see what kind of language and structure I used in my writings.
From a brat that fights.. uses words of non-edification.. anti-social.. stupid.. black sheep of the society...
to
a guy who could think sensibly, thought of others.. encourage people..
Then the next thing on my mind was... "God... Why you save only.. me?"
It's very much like God... elevated me from a "slump" and nurtured me... and put me into a "palace". What about my other friend? Why am I the only one selected? I mean.. I couldn't thank God enough for that wonderful choice and love.. I want His love... But why.. me only? Out of so many other friends who are striving along with me?
I couldn't understand... And for that first time I still remember... I really couldn't fit in to church environment as I find that.. I need to be clever.. dress nicely and all fashion-ish.. use words of greater depth and not simple English.. behave in a manner that is so elegant..
It's practically like... A street rat like me being place into a whole place filled with "noble" people.. and one fear that still lingers in me is.. Will I defile and compromise "Christianity" as a whole? I felt that.. I'm so un-educated.. so disqualified.. so un-mannered... and in time I really felt that I'm undermining the cohort.
Strange as it felt... I'm actually doing better and better months after months as I continue to walk this path onwards... Being a "pauper" to "prince". I mean... There fact still remains that He loves every single one of us and have great prospect and hope... And praise be to God for such kind of access He had granted for us to Him. As in my life.. There are still many things that I've yet discover... Nothing much I could say... "Gods will is higher then man"...
"God... I really thank you for selecting me from the depth of the well and brought me out to see the World that is much bigger... better then the World that I see whenever I lift up my head..."
To Him be the glory...