Was actually wanted to blog about some thoughts while having lunch @ a corner food center near an inter-junction of a crossroad. (BTW, it's quite a sight and it really sooth ones mood.)

But the SGH i780 doesn't permits that. Sadly... ...

Just a thought aloud: "Spending quiet moments with oneself accompanied by a cup of really piping hot beverage, some nibbles and a whole 'life' out there pacing up and down while you rest your legs. Thoughts will just stream in and set you marveling at how beings are so simply built but the chores are so complex. It's it just as human or just Singapore?"

Somewhat I think the greatest musical on screen I've watched was "Mouline Rouge!" by far. Kinda shallow though. :)

And theres a thing with Disney Music that captivates me.... or maybe since they are all during my childhood period. Ha!

Thought that I wanted to revive this blog thing was simply because of a saga that was happening to me, that indirectly dealing with human relational stuff.

Mainly of these fews that was considered for this setup;once again, of the blog.

I thought the pro of blogging would be...

1. able to brush up my command of English once more

2. I'm just not typing enough (No! MSN Messenger doesn't help much)

3. The "What's on your mind" on facebook wasn't that much of a space for me to put in my thought

4. I just wanted some room.. Ironically not that best of privacy though. Still the best way after all!

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What causes the whole relational saga was just a simple spark off from a simple "making-up" session @ my area. It was suppose to be settled; sealed with much promises and changes meant.

But somehow along the line things just just got wayward and things just started looking very bad from many angles.

Not inclusive of others (mainly who were the first-degree), I felt as if cheated and biased since that I thought I was putting in much sweat and soul in this (the relationship) and what was sown SHOULD reap some harvest; not particularly those of that in forms of monetary credits but in terms of relational returns. After all, "if you respect others will respect you."

Issn't how this whole things suppose to work out?

(Ps. Oh! I don't meant to have this too abstract so readers, do bear with it.)

So much negativity struck-ed me and I was what, I would call, "a sadist dog!" and it really shaken the very core of it.

Now whats' left was

1. Was that suppose to be the real you?

2. How am I suppose to react now? Smile and forget even though there's seriously something wrong?

3. Be fake?

4. Avoidance (which is contrary to what I would do.)

And I reckon this ministry doesn't like to hear the truth. And very much what choy would had said

"Everyone faces something during the weekdays and all they want to hear on weekend was 'good news'."

I'm at lost... ... ...

[ this shouldn't be for the start but I thought that I couldn't contain anymore, after all, "person" was the best person I could ever had and it's really a pity how much it changes an individual to such an extent that One would had resort to many underhand means, changes, prerogative and offensive ways to get back.

Much to add on, once on extremely wonderful terms as to what I put it and sees it that we would share the slightest things and accounted for.

to come out this way... ... ...

Because of a simple BGR.

I felt sorry as a human for you... ... ]

Got to move on... ...